Remember before you turned 18 and all you could think about was how once your an adult everything will finally fall into place? You have finished high school, thank god, you can go buy alcohol and go to clubbing with your best friends, can legally get tattoos and everything else you were restricted to before the mighty 18th birthday, but by the time that day actually came, you feel sort of stuck… WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH MY LIFE NOW!? During our whole time at school, all people and teachers would talk about was what you are going to do when you finish school, what career do you want for the rest of your life? How the fuck am i supposed to know what i want to do for the rest of my life when i am only 17! And you don’t know. Most of us will study our brains out and get barley any sleep for out last two years of high school, just so we can get into a university and study something that we are not even remotely interested in, because we have no idea what we are actually supposed to be doing with out lives when high school finishes.
Then comes the 18 year old part. Am i the only person that generally hates clubbing but does it anyway because i just want to be with my friends and drink my body weight in alcohol? I hope not. You go out on Saturday night with the expectations of the best night ever, you bought a new outfit, stocked up on drinks for pres so you wont have to buy drinks at the club because lets be real, who the hell wants to pay $11 for a half strength beer, but you end up buying drinks anyway. You get to the club and of course you are already taking off your nice high heels because you thought you would be able to tolerate them for the night, wrong. The bounces get a sort of high by being tough and rude to any one that they don’t like the look of, but you be polite to them anyway so you can pay $20 to get into a shitty over crowded club with bad music. By the end of the night you find yourself in the McDonald’s drive through with your Uber driver asking them if they want anything because your drunk as a skunk. Wake up the next morning and feel like utter shit, say to yourself that you are not going to drink again for a long time, and end up doing the exact same thing the next weekend.
Being an adult does not mean everything will fall into place. It means that you have no idea what you are going to do for the rest of your life, your financially fucked every week up until pay day, which you then spend of alcohol and cigarettes. And you know what, that’s OK, we as human beings are changing and evolving all the time. You do not need to have one set career for the rest of your life, not everything has to be decided upon now. So enjoy those nights where you spend more money then you should have, because those nights are what make you question yourself, and what you are really made of.